You're not here by accident
You’ve landed in this space because something in you is ready to just stop surviving. You’re a daughter of a tough mother. Maybe the word is “narcissistic.” Maybe “emotionally unavailable." Maybe it’s a silence that swallowed your childhood whole. Whatever your story, there's two things you need to know; your mother wound is not a mortal one...and you're in the right place.
walking the walk
My Motherlode Journey
surviving
A Secret World
I was raised by a mother who had Borderline Personality Disorder. A confusing and frightening condition that caused her to be one part wild and magnificent, one part monster — a reality that shaped my earliest understanding of love, safety, and selfhood. My mother was gorgeous and funny, tragic and terrifying. Day to day you never knew which part of her would show up. To survive I went...somewhere else. I fractured. I escaped from reality by becoming whatever my mother and others wanted me to be. I learned to shape-shift to survive, and people-please my way to popularity. I was full of personality yet was completely empty inside.
craving
An Identity of My Own
As I got older I spent years in traditional therapy until I reached a point where I realized I wasn’t healing — I was performing insight. I could talk about my trauma in textbook detail, but I couldn’t feel my way through it. At the same time, my ability to please helped me build a successful career consulting with Fortune 500 companies on how to connect authentically to their customers, yet I couldn't connect to myself. Relationships were impossible as I was always scanning the horizon for signs of judgement and abandonment. I mean, if your mother didn't want you, why would anyone else?
awakening
To a New Reality
Ten year later I was even more educated on my trauma, having tried cognitive behavioral therapy, antidepressants, you name it. I was also more lost than ever. I quit my job, sold my belongings, and bought a ticket abroad. I didn't even know what I was looking for anymore, but with no one to please I was just operating on pure instinct for the first time in my life. I spent the first few months numb, just watching the world float by, the foreign languages and exotic smells adding to my surreal sense of being. Slowly I started thawing, like coming out of a coma. It was in Cambodia where the thing I didn't know I was looking for finally found me.
"The wound is the place
the light enters you." - Rumi
This quote, written on the chalkboard of the hippy little Cambodian hostel I was staying in struck me like a lightening bolt. Over time, it would slowly change my entire world view. What if my mother wound wasn't something to be hidden or ashamed of? What if my trauma was actually a gift, a source of empathy, insight, and strength? And then finally the mother of them all...what if I'm not broken? I went on a quest to find out more about the Sufi poet, Rumi, and that lead me to mystical teachings which explore themes of generational patterns, karma, self-inquiry and the divine. This body of work implies that difficult experiences, often viewed as wounds, can create space for new understanding, healing, and ultimately, a more profound connection to oneself and the world.Â
Over the next decade, I traveled the world to learn more, studied under master teachers, completed advanced trainings in metaphysical practices, energy work, Jungian theories, and got 1:1 coaching and mentorship—not just to understand this work, but to live it. And through it all I've always thought, 'I didn't survive all this just for myself.' Tap Into the Motherlode is the culmination of my path. A space born from lived experience, deep study, and a commitment to real, embodied healing for daughters of tough mothers. I'm at peace now because I found meaning in my wound. And that's what I hope to share with you. To make these tools and teachings friendly and accessible so that you may discover what speaks to your soul too.Â
be your own spiritual warrior
What Motherlode Can Do For You
validation
Help You Name What Was Never Named
If you grew up in emotional chaos or chronic confusion, you may struggle to trust your own perceptions. Here, you’ll find language for what was never acknowledged — and space to validate what you’ve always felt but never had words for.Â
self love
Guide You from Insight to Integration
You may already recognize your patterns, but still feel stuck inside them. Motherlode helps you move beyond mental processing into soul-level integration. Through spiritual tools and presence-based practices, you’ll learn to embody the truth of who you are — not just talk about who and what hurt you.
wholeness
Hold Space for Your Becoming
This isn’t about fixing you. It’s about remembering you. Whether you’re grieving, unraveling, reclaiming, or rebuilding — this is a space where all of you is welcome. You’ll find guides, tools, rituals, and community to support your journey home — piece by piece.
So What Will We Be Doing?
Metaphysical Inquiry
Metaphysical inquiry invites us to explore the unseen layers of our reality—energy, intuition, soul truths. For daughters of tough mothers, this means stepping outside clinical approaches and into a more magical, embodied healing. It’s about tools that speak to the parts of us that were never nurtured, and finding freedom through ritual, energy work, and inner knowing.
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Spiritual Inquiry
Spiritual inquiry is our soul’s search for meaning. It’s how many of us begin to heal the mother wound—by questioning what we were taught about love, worth, and identity. This path reconnects us to the Divine Feminine, to our inner compass, and to a sense of belonging that doesn’t depend on being “good enough” for someone else.
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Ancestral Inquiry
Ancestral inquiry helps us trace the wound beyond our own lives. So many daughters of tough mothers carry pain that’s not just personal—it’s generational. This practice is about uncovering inherited patterns, honoring the truth of what came before, and choosing to become a loving ancestor in our own right.
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